We're Van People

So we have taken the plunge we are official parents, real live grown ups.....we bought a Mini Van!! Sorry no pics of the mom mobile but she is a perdy lil thing!! Asher was soooooo excited he ran too it at the dealership with arms open wide "OH MY WHISTLE" for some reason he calls mini van's whistles...we have no idea why. Anyway everyday since getting the "whistle" he asks to ride in the new whistle he is in LOVE with it. He is a funny lil guy I am so happy that all it takes for his happiness is us signing our life away and going in too major debt!!

Happy Day!!

It was bound to happen

(this is a follow up to my last post)

 

I wrote last time that I wanted to wholly give everything to God...WELL my days of trying came to a standstill this past Wednesday. God decided that this was the day that he would break me (kinda like they do horses) I was having a somewhat typical day and then BAM..I crumpled to the floor in the middle of my sons room and sobbed and sobbed. I cried out to God that I can't do this anymore, it is unfair, I am broken, I laid everything out. I have never ever had a "broken" moment before where there is nothing you can do, where you have reached the bottom and can barely see light. It was emotionally and physically draining...luckily I had my trusty sidekick running around naked to go and get mommy tissues!!

I am still having bits of brokenness but I am able to better handle these moments...thank goodness because I don't think being in the middle of Harris Teeter sobbing on the ground would be the best site.

I know why I got brought to that place and I understand why things are still in the pooper. He wants us to give him everything, He wants us to solely rely on Him, He wants us to live Great and Peaceful lives, living according to His plan. The only way that can be done is to become broken. To have no one else to turn too, no where to run or hide except to his open arms. Where he will provide, love unconditionally, listen, handle ALL of our problems and carry us through to the other side.

A prayer of Brokenness
When I've hit the bottom

O God,
Please turn my brokenness into a divine encounter with you. I feel overwhelmed by my circumstances, and I know that the only way out is through your help. I feel as if I've hit rock bottom, and I realize, Lord, how utterly dependent I am upon you. I cannot take another step without you. Make this a turning point for me. I release my future into your loving hands. Draw close to me in my brokenness and restore my fellowship with you.

The Lord is close to the brokenhearted; he rescues those whose spirits are crushed. Psalm 34:18
(365 pocket prayers)